Wednesday March 10th 2010

It is about time to write again. As much as I love writing and such sometimes it is a pain to sit down and start but once I did, it usually goes quickly. :)
The past few weeks have been crazy busy but also very boring. Sometimes I really don't care about doing anything in the house and then I feel bad when it looks super untidy and gross to me. I am so addicted to facebook but even that got me bored at times. ;)
We had a few cool things going on, like: Josh got accepted at the Albert Einstein Academy! I am so excited for him and us. It looks like a great opportunity for him to really learn german in school and start a great education from kindergarten on. It makes me happy and I truly hope with Nick leaving the Navy and all we will be able to stay here and enjoy a happy life in beautiful San Diego. :)
Josh and Nathan are cute and sweet (even though they drive me crazy so much). They are pretty good at playing with each other and entertaining each other, but they are also very good at fighting with each other. Josh loves to tease his younger brother so much and just enjoys taking toys away from Nathan so he starts crying. But from what I heard he is super sweet and gentle with little baby's. He's told us a few times now that we needed another baby and while driving to preschool one day he told his friend Dallin in the car that he would have a little sister that night. Dallin was like: "Really? He is going to have a sister tonight?" I am like "NO!" hahahaha if it was that easy to have a baby I would probably have much more by now. ;) So yeah the hints are there I guess. And I mean all my friends right now have super cute little baby's so the question is when we will be joining them. ;)
With my acting not much is happening. It is pretty depressing at times but I enjoy trying and while waiting I continue to love my life as a Mom and housewife. Sometimes I am really close to just give up but this has been my life-long dream I can not just quit because it doesn't happen quickly or the way I like it. I know I will be blessed if I stick to what I feel is right and true to me and if I continue to be myself. I also know that patience has never been something I was good at so the Lord is probably just working on me with that. ;) I am just that kind of a person that when I am excited about something, I have to do it right then and if it doesn't work out or takes a while I get frustrated and disappointed, yeah even depressed because I feel like I am maybe not good enough, pretty enough or skinny enough. :( But then I want to fight for it and continue to try it because I might not be a drop-dead-georgous model-type but I do have some qualities myself and I don't think I am super ugly so I try to see it with my sense of humor and laugh about it. I am not so stubborn for nothing. :D It is not always easy to see it with some humor and can get me down at times, but I am on it and will continue to love trying. You can't succeed or fail if you don't try. :)
Nick has finished his last class and has done it with honors. He will have his MBA diploma soon and I am so very proud of him for sticking to it and finishing it next to working full-time and for taking care of us as his family. :) It has been rough at times but he made it and did such a great job. Now he is looking into jobs after he leaves the Navy this summer. I am excited and nervous about this next part of life because despite all the bad things and experiences I had with the military it was a good thing for us and I do know it was meant for us during that time.
I continue to hope and pray that Nick will find a good job he likes doing and that we can stay here. I just love San Diego so much. It really is my home now and I don't want to leave at all. I feel I belong here if this makes sense. :)
Thinking back it is kind of weird. Because growing up my biggest dream was always acting but also visiting the United States. (LA/ Hollywood since that's because of my acting) but I felt in love with San Diego when I visited my friends here 1998 for the first time. There were things I had to get used to but I am home here and I can feel this is the right place to be. I love my little family, my friends, my ward, my life here.
I feel truly blessed with everything I have and I am grateful to have such a strong testimony in heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ.
"It isn't always easy, but it is totally worth it..."